7.07.2009

Mom, not dear...

I do not want you in my life.

She snail mail bombed me again. I told David last week that I was afraid, really AFRAID that she would show up on our doorstep for Matthew's birthday this week. Matthew is her favorite, after all...David told me she wouldn't dare.

Then the mail arrived.

A package addressed to the kids, nothing for me. Gifts for them, along with a note and a request for letters...about how their summer is going, what they are doing. OUCH that HURTS!!!!!!

She doesn't give a fuck about me. Never has....unless it served a purpose for her own gain.

I am sobbing here, so upset I cannot believe the strength of emotions I am feeling right now.

You cannot have a relationship with my children without having a relationship with me. This is true in every single facet of my children's lives. I know their teachers, their coaches, their friends parents.....all of them. I do not send my children out without knowing where they are going and who they plan to see. Why does my mother think that she can have a relationship with my kids without attempting one with me?

I'm sooo done.

1 comment:

Pez said...

You are right that she cannot have a relationship with your kids without having one with you. It is not fair to anyone!

Huge {{hugs}} Jill. I am so sorry that your mother has hurt you again.